what happens when you put two honorsexuals on a mission together? (closed)

[ex_onslaught851]

WHO: Yukimura and Saitou
WHAT: Recon mission
WHERE: Hulao Gate
WARNING(S): Saitou and Yukimura in the same post equals high chances of blushing schoolgirl-type behaviour.

[A few months after saving everyone who had been stationed at Ueda Castle, everything seemed to have settled into something of a routine. There were still plenty of people that needed to be saved from various other points in the timeline, but there wasn’t the same sense of crushing hopelessness that there had been. It was almost… nice, in a way. Sure, they still had a lot of work to do, but they also had a purpose along with it.

Speaking of which, it was why Yukimura and Saitou had been sent to Hulao Gate to see what the situation was there. The cold weather wasn’t something that Yukimura was particularly used to, but he didn’t dare to complain. After all, he’d been fortunate enough to be sent on a mission with someone that he worked well together with – he couldn’t ask for anything more than that.

Still, it wasn’t a location that Yukimura recognised, so he couldn’t help but be curious about a few things. So while they were trying to find a place to set up camp, Yukimura decided to ask a few questions.]

Hajime-dono – have you been here before? I do not recognise the location, myself.

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[iaijutsu]

[This is only logical and the blanket is small and he is totally not blushing as he slides in a little closer, what are you talking about.]

[ex_onslaught851]

Is that any better for you?

[Even Yukimura seems to have relaxed somewhat. He's certainly feeling warmer too, though it's not just from the additional warmth the closeness affords him.]

[iaijutsu]

Yes.

[Definitely warmer, and not just in the sort of way that the temperature implies. His posture is a little more relaxed once they move in closer, too; less stiff and formal, and a little less closed in that way that suggests he's trying to ball up and keep the heat in.]

[ex_onslaught851]

[Right now he's not sure that he can find the right words to do this moment justice. Is there anything that he can actually say that won't be awkward?]

... Let me know if there is anything else I can help with, then.

[Nope, still awkward.]

[iaijutsu]

[That was incredibly awkward.

And yet somehow endearing.]

This is more than enough.

[ex_onslaught851]

[Yukimura can't help but chuckle, still a little embarrassed.]

I promise I will leave you to it now.

[iaijutsu]

[It's just embarrassment central up in this joint, isn't it.

He pulls the end of the blanket a little more closely around him - as much as he can manage without yanking on it and depriving Yukimura of his side, anyway.]

[ex_onslaught851]

[Don't think that Yukimura doesn't notice. So he's going to keep giving Saitou more of his half of the blanket for as long as he can until he notices.]

[iaijutsu]

[Oh, look, he's noticed.]

Yukimura-dono.

[ex_onslaught851]

Yes, Hajime-dono?

[Look at that innocent face.]

[iaijutsu]

I am not so cold that we should leave you uncovered.

[ex_onslaught851]

I'm fine, Hajime-dono. Your proximity helps to keep me warm as well.

[... oops.]

[iaijutsu]

[Well clearly then he's just going to have to SCOOT FURTHER IN so Yukimura will stop trying to subtly enable him into being a blanket hog.

...that might be a little closer than he meant to get.

Or maybe a lot closer. They're pretty smushed together now.]

[ex_onslaught851]

H-Hajime-dono...?

[He's definitely rather close now. Yukimura has to remind himself not to do anything Saitou will punch him for later.]

[iaijutsu]

[As if there's anything Saitou would punch him for.

But that question just makes Saitou feel a hundred times more self-conscious about what he's doing.]

If you insist on giving up so much of the blanket, I...wish to ensure that you are still warm enough, Yukimura-dono.

[ex_onslaught851]

You do not mind this?

[Because there's something that compels him to want to take more. Even though he knows that he shouldn't. Yukimura swallows hard, trying to ignore his impulses.

... and yet he's leaning in even closer anyway. Now their faces are only inches apart.]

[iaijutsu]

No, not at all.

[Although it feels like his heart is beating faster, when Yukimura leans in like that - but that's silly of him, isn't it? There's nothing to be nervous about when he trusts Yukimura implicitly, more than he'd trust almost anybody else.]

[ex_onslaught851]

[Truth be told, Yukimura isn't entirely sure if what he's doing is the right thing anymore. It feels right, but Saitou could turn around and protest, and then--

It'd make for a very awkward night in a shared tent, that was for sure.

But that somehow doesn't stop him from cupping Saitou's cheek in his hand, the distance between them decreasing once again.]

And this?

[iaijutsu]

[It...feels warm, again, in that way that has nothing to do with actual heat, and while this isn't the first time that thought has crossed his mind tonight, whatever he felt before was nothing compared to this.]

This is...also fine.

[ex_onslaught851]

If you wish for me to stop...

[Then that's about the last warning that Yukimura is actually going to give, because unless Saitou tells him to back off, he's not sure that he can restrain himself.

The feelings have been there for months, he knew that, even if he'd been trying to avoid acknowledging them. But there's something about this situation that makes him want to push further than he's ever dared to go.]

[iaijutsu]

[It's hard to admit it out loud - because expressing himself simply isn't how Saitou functions; he pushes his feelings to the side, he keeps them out of the way, he rarely lets anyone see the side of him that's anything but purely businesslike and professional.

But admitting to something here and now...surely that wouldn't get in the way of anything, would it?

And even as repressed as he tends to be, it's getting increasingly hard to deny to himself that -]

I don't.

[ex_onslaught851]

[They're both the same, in that regard. It's always been duty before everything else - his own personal happiness has never played into it before. At least, not before now. Yukimura is terrible at figuring out how to get what he wants in his personal life. All he's ever tried to do is fight for his lord, or for the cause of the Resistance movement. His own desires had never played into it.

But everything had changed when he'd met Saitou, as cliché as that was. And for once, Yukimura wasn't sure that he minded it, even if he'd never felt so unsure about how to handle a situation before in his life. So far, though... so far, everything felt right.

... and so leaning forward to press his lips against Saitou's in a brief kiss doesn't feel wrong either. If this is wrong, he's not sure that he ever wants to be right again.]

[iaijutsu]

[He'd always thought of this kind of thing as something that would only be in the way, a distraction from what he needed to focus on. He had his duty, he had his comrades, and anything more than that would get in the way.

And in a way, he's only realizing now how true that really is. If he had to lay down his life tomorrow, he doesn't want to think about what Yukimura would do when he found out. So even knowing that, and knowing what a conflict of interests he could be setting himself up for - he should be holding back, he should be telling Yukimura to stop there.

But he isn't.

He's just tilting his face up towards Yukimura's and wishing this could last longer.]

[ex_onslaught851]

[There was no doubt that Yukimura wouldn't like it, but he would understand. They were similar in that regard - he too would put his life on the line without thinking too much about the consequences. If it was necessary, he'd go ahead and do it, even if the cost was high.

Knowing that they could lose one another at any moment, that they could be called upon to give such huge sacrifices, Yukimura shouldn't have been putting either of them in such a position at all. But really, what did they have to lose? They were from different time periods, they'd never get a chance to do this again. It wasn't as though they could wait for everything to be restored to normal to give this another try.

And that's why, when Saitou doesn't push him away, Yukimura dares to deepen the kiss, hoping that he wouldn't change his mind. He didn't want to have any regrets.]

[iaijutsu]

[It's that understanding that makes this possible, as poorly timed and as ill-fated as it's likely to be. Saitou would lay down his life without blinking if Hijikata ordered it; there are precious few people who understand that the way Yukimura does, and he could never justify this to himself with any of them. Leaving behind someone who didn't get it would be too cruel; better never to let them grow that close to him in the first place.

But Yukimura understands, and that makes all the difference in the world.

They still have a lot to lose, but either of them would at least understand why they had to lose it.

He reaches up, his hand tentatively settling behind Yukimura's neck to pull him in closer.]