and please, believe me when I say (closed)

[ex_onslaught851]

WHO: Yukimura, Saitou, Zhao Yun
WHAT: Conversations about the aftermath + Nagashino + feelings things
WHERE: Resistance Army Camp
WARNING(S): To be determined?

[So we have a Saitou/Yukimura conversation and a Zhao Yun/Yukimura conversation happening up in here. GOOD? GOOD.]

Comments

[ex_onslaught851]

O-of course, I am simply overthinking things again. Perhaps I am still rather tired.

[dragonrises]

Oh. Then, I should not be taking up your time, if you need to rest.

[yep. that oblivious]

[ex_onslaught851]

But Zilong, I wish to...

[Zhao Yun is oblivious and Yukimura fails to communicate what he wants every single time.

Now he's just getting frustrated with himself.]

Perhaps I should leave you be. I am hardly good company in such a state, anyway.

[dragonrises]

[well now you have him concerned, and pushing himself out of his chair]

Wish to what? Yukimura, I did say you could tell me anything. And I do not thing you to be poor company in any sense - I hope I haven't given you that impression. Please. Perhaps if you just let it out, you will feel better.

[ex_onslaught851]

It is ... mostly about my behaviour when we returned to camp.

[In other words, the handholding.]

I apologise if I made you uncomfortable.

[dragonrises]

What? [thinking...what, falling asleep and being clingy?]

Oh, no. No, you didn't. I took no offense. You were tired, and I expect feeling out of sorts. I am glad I could be there for you.

[ex_onslaught851]

Feeling out of sorts...

[Should he feel glad or guilty that it could be chalked up to that? Oops.]

I am glad that you were there with me.

[dragonrises]

...am I wrong?

[he really thought it was merely a friendly gesture, even if it made him feel all warm and happy inside]

[ex_onslaught851]

It... felt right to do.

[Which could say a little, or it might say a lot.]

[dragonrises]

[that sounds like something completely different, although Zilong isn't quite sure what]

And if I said I did not mind, no matter what the reason?

[ex_onslaught851]

No matter what the reason...? Are you certain of that?

[Though Yukimura's heart sure did skip a beat at the thought.]

[dragonrises]

[hmmmmmmmmmmmm thinking....]

Yes, I am certain. I only wish to know...what you truly meant by it.

[because the truth behind it would have other ramifications]

[ex_onslaught851]

... We grew close during our time together, and I rather missed that. It did not feel unnatural to seek comfort from you when I needed it the most.

I am afraid that I cannot explain it better than that, at current.

[dragonrises]

[that sounds like a 'just friends' from his angle. Which means he doesn't have to ask about Saitou]

I can accept that. It's fine, Yukimura. I would not deny you comfort at a time like that.

[ex_onslaught851]

[Oh good, because Yukimura doesn't know how to explain his feelings, much less admitting what he feels for Saitou too. That's a whole bunch of awkward that he doesn't want to go into yet.]

Thank you, Zilong. I know that I can always count on you, and for that I am glad.

[dragonrises]

[it only prolongs the awkward until later, Yukimura.

...for now he just sets a hand on his friend's shoulder, no subtext or anything with that one]

I hope that puts your mind at ease.

[ex_onslaught851]

It does for now. Thank you, Zilong.

[He earns a small smile for his troubles. Prolonging the awkward seems to be just fine with him right now- since he can't bring himself to be upfront about this yet.]