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and please, believe me when I say (closed)

WHO: Yukimura, Saitou, Zhao Yun
WHAT: Conversations about the aftermath + Nagashino + feelings things
WHERE: Resistance Army Camp
WARNING(S): To be determined?

[So we have a Saitou/Yukimura conversation and a Zhao Yun/Yukimura conversation happening up in here. GOOD? GOOD.]

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[he sits up and then forward, clasping his hands in his lap]

Speak your mind, Yukimura. We have more or less established that our friendship hasn't changed. You can trust me with anything. You will have my confidence, if that is what is needed.

... Do you truly believe that nothing has changed between us, since we first met?

[It's not an accusatory tone- he's more curious than anything.]

[he mulls it over, checking every facet of their friendship for a mistake]

...we have become closer, perhaps. But, while I remember the circumstances of our meeting, I find it hard to remember how it felt not to know you. We have been friends a long time.

[No, that's all that he really wanted to hear. Though there's a slight smile on his face when he says "perhaps".]

Only perhaps? I am closer to you than I am to most, Zilong. You have seen sides to me that others haven't. And I do not think that I would have it any other way. Even if this world can be difficult at times... I am glad that we were able to meet.

[oh, so fond of this man] And I will always do my best to live up to your trust in me. May I never give you cause to doubt.

I doubt that you could ever fail me, Zilong. And in turn I will do my best not to let you down either.

[well good, now that that's settled...]

...is that what you were worried about? How close we have become?

[Dammit, caught out. Yukimura flushes a little.]

Not exactly, no. Or rather- I find that I do not mind how close we are. Just that... I rather like it.

[well, that's a little weird at a time like this]

Are you sure everything is all right?

O-of course, I am simply overthinking things again. Perhaps I am still rather tired.

Oh. Then, I should not be taking up your time, if you need to rest.

[yep. that oblivious]

But Zilong, I wish to...

[Zhao Yun is oblivious and Yukimura fails to communicate what he wants every single time.

Now he's just getting frustrated with himself.]

Perhaps I should leave you be. I am hardly good company in such a state, anyway.

[well now you have him concerned, and pushing himself out of his chair]

Wish to what? Yukimura, I did say you could tell me anything. And I do not thing you to be poor company in any sense - I hope I haven't given you that impression. Please. Perhaps if you just let it out, you will feel better.

It is ... mostly about my behaviour when we returned to camp.

[In other words, the handholding.]

I apologise if I made you uncomfortable.

What? [thinking...what, falling asleep and being clingy?]

Oh, no. No, you didn't. I took no offense. You were tired, and I expect feeling out of sorts. I am glad I could be there for you.

Feeling out of sorts...

[Should he feel glad or guilty that it could be chalked up to that? Oops.]

I am glad that you were there with me.

...am I wrong?

[he really thought it was merely a friendly gesture, even if it made him feel all warm and happy inside]

It... felt right to do.

[Which could say a little, or it might say a lot.]

[that sounds like something completely different, although Zilong isn't quite sure what]

And if I said I did not mind, no matter what the reason?

No matter what the reason...? Are you certain of that?

[Though Yukimura's heart sure did skip a beat at the thought.]

[hmmmmmmmmmmmm thinking....]

Yes, I am certain. I only wish to know...what you truly meant by it.

[because the truth behind it would have other ramifications]

... We grew close during our time together, and I rather missed that. It did not feel unnatural to seek comfort from you when I needed it the most.

I am afraid that I cannot explain it better than that, at current.

[that sounds like a 'just friends' from his angle. Which means he doesn't have to ask about Saitou]

I can accept that. It's fine, Yukimura. I would not deny you comfort at a time like that.

[Oh good, because Yukimura doesn't know how to explain his feelings, much less admitting what he feels for Saitou too. That's a whole bunch of awkward that he doesn't want to go into ~~yet~~.]

Thank you, Zilong. I know that I can always count on you, and for that I am glad.

[it only prolongs the awkward until later, Yukimura.

...for now he just sets a hand on his friend's shoulder, no subtext or anything with that one]

I hope that puts your mind at ease.

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