[He's not sure Yukimura could ever understand, even if he could find the words to explain - because how does one explain something that deeply affecting? When he found respect for the first time among the Shieikan regulars, it was like a crushing weight was lifted from him, one he'd never even realized the true force of because he'd grown so used to carrying it.
But Yukimura's approval means even more than that. It's respect from one of the greatest examples of a system that has never been kind to him - or to any of them in the Shinsengumi. It's not just a few people proving that there are exceptions to the rule; it's the highest kind of approval he could ever hope to receive.]
I...hope this is not too invasive to ask, but I had also wondered if this was related to your... ["Calling me Hajime." Gosh, it's almost too embarrassing to say out loud. He can't be that direct about it...!]
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[He's not sure Yukimura could ever understand, even if he could find the words to explain - because how does one explain something that deeply affecting? When he found respect for the first time among the Shieikan regulars, it was like a crushing weight was lifted from him, one he'd never even realized the true force of because he'd grown so used to carrying it.
But Yukimura's approval means even more than that. It's respect from one of the greatest examples of a system that has never been kind to him - or to any of them in the Shinsengumi. It's not just a few people proving that there are exceptions to the rule; it's the highest kind of approval he could ever hope to receive.]
I...hope this is not too invasive to ask, but I had also wondered if this was related to your... ["Calling me Hajime." Gosh, it's almost too embarrassing to say out loud. He can't be that direct about it...!]
...to the change in how you have addressed me.